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[-Reda-]

6|9|02 - it's friday 23:07 local time, i'm doing this for myself, to clear up my mind, to hide my feelings, to get away from the truth... You can have friends without knowing it, and at the same time make enemies with your past. I live by the fact that everybody changes, nobody's the same and everything that's real can blow up in your face because the truth that you imagined was a life-livin'-lie. the dresscode of people here in amsterdam is difficult, because you can be judged by it. it's like everything is all about the outside, the way you walk, the way you talk, but in your mind you know who you are and just realise that you don't want to be that person. i am not like that, i already accepted the fact that i am who i am and not gonna live my life like some player in a game, i've chosen to be myself, the way that i am. some might think i'm strange, maybe even fun, all i can say is that i am an individual and no-one can take that part of me, i'm just being me... now i can ask you questions like, 'why do you hate me?' or 'why do you care?' the only answer i could think of is life ain't fair... or is it the people. if you do mind your own buesiness but keep an eye on me, cause when i fall, it's going to be a long fall and by the time that happens.. catch me.. Those are the true friends.. but i'm not mad and i won't tell a secret if i have to and maybe not even tell it because i just don't do, cause every secret is save by me.. i'll just shut up. some friends are the best friends, you can trust them, you know you can count on them, they know who you are and they'll always try to protect you. I don't have many friends like these but the ones i have, you know i have your back covered, back-protection men! you might read this all.. so i'm asking you are you angry? do you think you know me? do you want to know me? well, just check it.. My name is Reda Haouam, born 16|06 , it all turned out wrong.. that date is cursed.. i'm telling ya, when it's june the 16th, just look outside, look what's happening, search for a smile, cause i'm not giving you one.. is it cursed? i'm tired maybe, maybe only my eyes, my mind, just this.. maybe the words don't come out so good, maybe you even think i'm evil, i'm not.. so i wanna say.. i'm sorry men for all the things i've done.. without even knowing i did it to you.. i'm sorry for the things i've said, couldn't find the right words and after that regret.. the things i've heard and maybe tell, without knowing the fact i couldn't yell.. i'm just saying sorry for everythings that's bad because of me and made you mad, the things i've done that clearly were wrong.. but don't hate me for the things i did not knew cause if your wrong all i can say is fok joe..! love & respekt is everything, but do i really think so? yes i do, is you love me you should respekt me, and don't critizise me all the way. Cause if you love me you supose to trust me, and should try to listen to whatever i say.. when i don't live up the rules i made up myself, i could say whatever i want and end up with to black eyes sitting in a wheelchair playing basket with one arm.. so do i believe what i'm saying all the time again and again, yes i do.. love and respekt is everything.. you see this page is black and white, some people see the world just like this. i'm not talking about the gray area, i'm talkin bout colors. they hear somthing like a rumour (black) and they believe it (white) and then they start thinking like what if? and so if that's the case he/she might be like that.. and suddenly they make up stories without knowing they making people look bad. i don't say a thing unless it's true, if i don't know for sure i just say that it could be and not that it is, i don't make any conclusions about any- or somebody i know or don't know.. two guys walkin hand in hand, might be a gay but could be two friends, but not makin conclusion but say the one that's obvious just for fun of something, look gays! like that.. even when you don't like me try not to hate me.. it's now 23:51 just wanna say good night and remember this love and respekt is everything...! One Luv to My homes Michael (iNdo-Bro)...thnx for helping clear my mind!!!! Reda aka Yo' Lil' MoCrO InDoOP

[-Reda-]

Mayb it's not the fact that i miss joe but the question of how to kiss ya not the stars that made the sky relight but your voice hearing trough the dark night the wind that was chillin' when i started to shiver cause i knew you felt my heart when i heared you...whisper a tear that dropped in complete silence of a broken soul beat up with violence nevathelest i keep on going cause i won't let myself stop to keep on growing i love my world but it seems unreal like that shitty show of ally mc'beal yes i am an Mocro but i won't walk wit a label cause i already know I'm putting my cards on the table...

[-Reda-]

I love my mom, I love my Dad I love My brotha, he makes me mad I hope for loving, dreams come true I love to dedicate my love to you I hate to be sad, I hate to cry I don’t feel watching, Day gone by Butwhen it’s night, and I see Stars I then just hope, be where you are Your my love, my shining star Your the engine, that drives me far Your the love, I never had Your the one I longht for bad And then you came, into my life Mywonderful lady, my dear lovely Wifey...This is the future It’s a matter of time, that we shall be together and you will be mine...

[-Reda-]

When you in need for a person to cry there will be meeh cause I’ll be at ya side maybe not there but surely in here By your heart of a Spider Not cold but 2 near Look around in this world and than you will see Open your Eyes My heart will set you Free... By the heart of a Spider

[-Reda-]

with no hopes and my will to live barely a care in this world to me I found a way kidnapped and confined within a system designed to destroy the inncocent child that I use to be it stripped me mentally naked embarrassing as my mommas first born did I deserve that kind of fate? Was all that was happening to me really written in the powerfull and Allmighty book of life? I don't think so My tears would soak the pages that I write upon if I couldn't close the windows to my soul and stand strong in the midst of these storms Maybe my story is in some way or another fimilar with yours is that why this aint even a song but yet you still.. you wanna here this once more I read this everytime I wanna reflect from which I've come from to help me see were it is I'm trying to go and even though grandpa and some family left me some time ago I still go by and sit on the front porch as if I dont even know but I'm getting better my mom my brother...Anouar destiny man I got Mike and Refaya now my homeboyz and those that love me regardless... Diary of a sinner another entry I guess i'll finish this tomorrow...

[casawiea]

Ik help je lekker niet mee hahaha oke voor deze keer dan effe zoeken maar ik doe ze in het nederlands of arabisch of zal wel:)

[-Reda-]

Picture me in that casket Blasted, never nobody knew how long the pain lasted Keep my eyes tight I'm frightened But I fights like Tyson when I'm playin this game of life I'm losin longin to be enlightened Absorb my mind state Reduce the crime rate and take me out When runnin toward the Allah I seen him fake me out Shook me so from the mosque I played hooky Listen to the words of a brother The sick stutter So ya better better get the get the bags ready B'come a killa killa like Schagnetti My brain's contaminated Hella rotten, it wasn't me that killed you Who was it, what was it The affects of the mildew My brains wilted In my eyes the world is a bit tilted Lord take me away before somebody else gets killed Blood is getting spilled seriously This is a letter to my homies I'll be missin Allah told me to behold a pale horse but I didn't listen It's hard man, my life is scarred man I'm losin my mind so now it's time Sincerely signed, Reda

[-Reda-]

I made your life a livin hell with my infadelity Remember you tellin me All I give a damn about is my faith, my family and melodies Shoulda left long time ago like Mary J. say Just let it go like Ray J I know your mama heard you yellin May Day Spent my life tryin to W R I T to the E You were sick of me always bein B to the R, O K to the E There was nothing else left of me I was a bum but you still wanted some Through the rain, snow and thunder Foul-ups, bleeps and blunders But no man shall tear us under Is what you said Shoulda put multi bullets in my head When you found that Killer Instinct was actually a game And the events actually went on This is a letter To my homie, my friend who put up with me through eight So now to take me really quickly's my fate I'm sorry For makin it hard I know you're scarred I'm losin my mind so now it's time Sincerely signed, Reda

[-Reda-]

This goes out to, all the infants in this cold world that was born addicted And to all the poor and sick kids Just remember these four words y'all - we gon' make it The government keep on tryin to fool us The system, keep on tryin to lose us And all we can do is keep buyin computers And we better do it all now before this economy goes down We gotta hold our head, keep our pride Though it hurts when I see people sleep outside Little babies with no socks on, eatin popcorn We all know what they moms and they pops on Out goes the love when the drugs come They never got nothing for Christmas, and most of them are Muslim This is a jewel, a lot of us was them This is a jewel, a lot of us was them...

[-Reda-]

To all my lockdown people keep your head in the sky To my shot down people keep your head in the sky I don't know if it's better to ride, or better to die And that's why there's red in my eye Cause people don't know what the reality is like Either you make it out, or the terrible life I don't wanna be a broke bastard And everybody got somebody in they family with an alcohol addict You work for minimum wage I'ma get in the game, get shot or a bid in the cage It's a risk I gotta take - and I'ma be the one And even though I'm blessed with this gift I gotta move cause the pain and the sickness gotta wait I go extremely hard so why give up? And I can breathe long as I keep my head up in the sky...

[-Reda-]

Origineel gepost door casawiea Ik help je lekker niet mee hahaha :( Origineel gepost door casawiea oke voor deze keer dan effe zoeken maar ik doe ze in het nederlands of arabisch of zal wel:) Yeeeee..>:D:D:D :Iluvu:

[casawiea]

vannacht.... Door het oog van de naald. Totaal onverwacht. Dit had ik niet gedacht, lusteloos vond ik jou, verstijfd,vol met pijn. die doffe ogen van jou, jij kon niet opstaan, ik zag je liggend van de pijn. door het oog van de naald. gelukkig mocht ik er zijn. snel de dierenarts gebeld, ze kwam er aan. binnen een paar uur was jij een beetje hersteld. jij ging door het oog van de naald

[casawiea]

Where is the time when you and I could just make fun when we felt like it? Where is the time when nobody stood between us? Not on your side and not on mine... Is it all your fault or was I wrong to think you weren't the one for me? I guess I wasn't because I'm very happy the way I am, I wouldn't want to change a thing about it... I only feel there's is something missing... I miss your friendship, I miss your comforting arms around me when I'm down, I miss your smile like the time I could always make you laugh... Let it be, they say...but is it really that simple? Have we really got nothing to fight for any longer? Is it you that doesn't want to fight, or is it I? I don't know the answer... I wish I knew, I wish I knew what I mean for you right now... Do I really mean that less to you that you drop me on the ground because you like someone else more then me? Do you want me to act the same way about you? Is that what you want? For the friend I've find in you... I've lost you... I hope to find you back soon...

[casawiea]

Leave me while I'm still alive, and let me sing on this jive, go and dance on this beat, so i can dance in heaven's heat... When i die, i want sunburned cheeks, so i can remember my two last weeks, I'll never forget you, and that, i swear, cause you were my sweetest teddybear... You took care of me as long as you could, even longer than you should, although i was often mad, you really were the best friend i ever had, So goodby my friend and take good care, and please... Don't forget the love we share...

[casawiea]

they make me cry.. they make me wanna die, I keep asking my self why? they make me feel bad the make me feel so sad why are they so mad?! they are telling me to go on they are telling me that I´m strong but they know deep inside that they´re wrong... they are telling me that they know.. they are telling me that I must let her go, I can´t let her go I love her so.. and they know... but they just don´t let it show..